One of the reasons why I love journaling so much is that it allows me to document my life. I'm not documenting for anyone else... just for me. To me it's a value-statement. I am saying to myself that my life is worth documenting. I like to be able to offer myself that sense of validation.
It seems that I inadvertently took a break from blogging. That is because I inadvertently took a break from journaling. My grandma passed away in early March. I have never had to deal with the death of someone who was so close to me and it's been really hard. I know that a journal can be an excellent place to turn when things are hard but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I guess I was afraid... afraid of admitting what was going on, afraid of moving forward, afraid of my emotions.... But then one day I took out my pen and I wrote about what was going on. I wrote about how I was feeling. And yes, it was hard. But documenting and validating my grief has been a good experience. It is helping me to learn how to adjust to life. Initially it was all so overwhelming; knowing that one day my grandma will have been gone for a month, then two months, and one day it'll be a year, and then two years... I did not know how to deal with that. And honestly, I still don't. But as time goes on I am dealing. And journaling has played an important role, for which I am thankful.
